Back To Basics

“This is Paper with no lines on it. We use this to draw on with pencil and let me introduce you to charcoal. The work we will be doing will have no color at first. We might let you play with pastels later, when we think you can handle it.”

Ok I’m feeling a bit snarky at the moment.

I’m just taking myself back to basics. The need to create was so overwhelming I didn’t know what to do about it. Especially, Because this great fear of paint and canvas welled up from some black hole inside of me. Now you may realize that blackholes don’t let things out, they suck things in. SO this has to be some bad stuff baby that a blackhole is willing to let it go.

So back to basics of paper, pencil, and charcoal. They have only been tools for preps and quick idea sketches for me. Never felt comfortable with them as a means of expression for myself. Yes, I could draw stuff, but couldn’t make it ’say’ anything for/to me. So I’ve been trying to make it do what I need it to. Trying to get that same release I get with paint and color. (Never thought of paint and color as a drug before. But hey it fits: addiction, withdrawal, release, obsession, etc)Been at it a week, hopefully it will lead me somewhere, elsewhere.

~ by Nyssa on September 21, 2008.